oh..decisions, decisions. i’ve decided to not worry about tomorrow…or about what college i’m going to, or if i’m going to college–my future is in His hands, and that is where it will be. i’ve been spending entirely way too much time worrying about the college i’m going to and what i’m going to do next year that i have not spent time thanking God for the present-for here and now. “do not worry about tomorrow…” Jesus says in Matthew…so, i leave it in His hands and will remain thankful for where He has placed me now. the Lord will open doors when the time is right, you know?

 

also…in other news : ) this past weekend i went out and bought a d300 nikon…i had been saving and decided that it was time to go for it. i’m ecstatic..she’s a beauty… maybe i’ll put up some pictures soon : )

 

blessings.

 

 

i read this in a book by elisabeth elliot last night and was so blessed by it…

” there is only one classroom in which to learn:
1. the work of God
2. the will of God
3. the trustworthiness of God
4. the presence of God

the classrooom is where i am now. this is the place appointed by
God for my instruction and santification- even here:

1. where it seems God is doing nothing (He is, in fact, at work in unseen ways)
2. where His will seems obscure or frightening (He will surely give me peace at last)
3. where He isn’t doing what i want Him to (He is doing something better- perhaps He is doing the very thing i prayed for, but in a way incomprehensible to me)
4. where He is most absent (yes, even there His promise holds: I will never leave you or forsake you..) “

the Lord is at work, even when i don’t realize it or feel far from His grace. He is there, always steadfast and true. i think that this is such a new season in my life…and i’m ready….and trusting Him…

 

 

“let anyone who comes to you go away feeling better and happier. every one should see goodness in your face, in your eyes, in your smile. joy shows from the eyes, it appears when we speak and walk. it cannot be kpet closed inside us. it reacts outside. joy is very infectious..” (mother teresa)

 

“therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. and walk in love as Christ
loved us & gave Himself up for us…” ephesians 5:1

 

tonight i was praying some and you know, i was really convicted that at times…
i really don’t have the faith that i should have. i read something today like this…

“My child, you believe Me for so little. don’t be so safe in the things you pray.
who are you trying to keep from looking foolish? Me or you?”

and i stopped. and thought. that is so true in my life. i have so little faith but why? He is the One who
does the impossible, the Creator..our Savior…why should i doubt Him? why should i worry?

i also read this….

“and this is the confidence that we have toward Him, that if
we ask anything according to His will He hears us. and if we know that He hears us in
whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of Him…”
(1 john 5:14-15)

oh, to think that He cares so much for us…Lord, forgive me for any unbelief i have.



i think i’ve almost decided that i’m going to new york next month on a missions outreach..and possibly to amsterdam again this summer on another trip. i’m still really thinking about it but..we’ll see. i’m thankful for the doors that the Lord has opened! and also, tomorrow i’m sending in my college application ahh. i’m pretty excited : ) oh…the best is yet to come…